First day in my primary school. This was an earliest point in realizing myself.
I had transferred from another school, and everything felt unfamiliar. By noon, I felt the urge to use the loo, but a strange stubbornness held me back. I told myself: finish the class session first, then go.
Why am I like this? Is it fear or it’s just the way my consiousness is designed…
Can I think this as one of the positive traits of me?
Thankfully, a friend whispered that it was fine to leave, that teachers weren’t so strict. I finally went, relieved not just physically.
That moment taught me something about my nature—I like to stick to rules, finish what I start, and avoid deviations.
This habit is both a blessing and a challenge. It gives me focus and persistence, but sometimes it makes me rigid. Perhaps it isn’t fear or naivety—it’s simply the way my consciousness is wired.
I choose to see this habit mostly as a positive trait—it reflects my focus and determination. Yet I also recognize that in today’s fast-moving world, such rigidity can become a disadvantage. Perhaps the real wisdom lies in balance: to stay committed when it matters, but to allow myself the freedom to deviate when necessary. In learning when to hold on and when to let go, I can turn this stubbornness into strength.

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